"Moving On"

Moving On .... is sometimes hard to do. Leaving something where you have been so comfortable for so long is even harder. Being at the age that I am (21). I think its time to do which Ive been needing to do for so long. I realized that "You must make your dreams become reality, so you have no more dreams, but actuality" -- Mike.
I'm starting to understand that you only can be the person you want to be when you let all strings holding you back go! I know I may struggle, and I even may fall, but we "ALL" proably will hit rock bottom. Hitting rock bottom is only defined as the point where you realized that you really need to get your act together. Throughout this last month Ive been faced with struggles, have seen struggles, and have felt the pain. I just know that I will strive for a better month this time around. Everyday I start to become more and more stress free, althought things have not gotten extremly better. I just know that I'm growing up! So yeah, it looks like finally Michael John is starting to do things for himself, cause at the end of the day it all falls down to just me!

"Thru My Eyes"

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Today, I'll have to face some choices, and so far thru it all. I know what I need to do, and I know what I want to do. Which is why today really doesn’t come together, between My needs, and wants. "Thru My Eyes", I know it’s best to put needs first, and by doing so your wants will come later. Right now I am just stuck on what ifs, and maybes. How do I give up something I so want, for that something I so need? My Life seems to be going too fast, and each day, each different thing, requires more of my time. How do I manage time, when I have really lack of it? I think I may need an assiatant because my scheduled is becoming too complex, or do I? Well, "Thru My Eyes" I know it’s best for me to make the choices I "Need" to make, because in the long run(So I’ve Learned), That your wants are not what’s going to get you anywhere. Your basic needs, always "Need" to be taken care of to prepare you for the wants. All this to say friends/Family, we should bear to take care of ourselves. I'm faced with the decision of leaving Deadline Production, leaving Red Robin, and/or leaving my my parents house. So many things I have to think about but today these decisions will be made at the stake of my needs. As my day begin I "Will” begin with prayer, and start my day. I will clip off some lose ends, and ongoing situations. ""Thru My Eyes" God will show me the right path, and give me the right words. I can only be me, and giving up now is not an option, but Moving on is the only way to go. I can’t move backwards because I will be repeating. Today this will end "Thru My Eyes", for I'm closing out my pity parties, and closing out the Life that I thought I found, and starting Life that I will now create. "Thru My Eyes, I see the road that I must take, and I know that I may lose people along the way, But those who dare to stay true to Friendship and embrace values will always be around and in my heart always.